Yes, the title of this blog is a Taylor Swift song, I know you're judging me, but I happen to really like her songs and I don't care. However, that song (though it has a fitting title) doesn't fit the best day of my life. It WAS a fairy tale, but it wasn't because of a guy, though it does include a guy; its about a battle and a victory of sorts.
So I'm going to tell my story by using a different TS song,Long Live , it fits so much better. Taylor wrote the song about her and her band winning the CD of the year and how they overcame so much. That's what I feel like; I over came something as a team; something to remember...
I said remember this moment, in the back of my mind...
I woke up that morning, May 3rd, 2012, and I lay in my bed trying to hold on to the feeling, of waking up and knowing that today I was going to stand on huge stage and perform in front of all my friends and teachers and my whole student body. Do you know what that feels like? Its crazy and magical, and it doesn't make sense. It was like waking up in a fairy tale.
The time we stood with our shaking hands...
You bet I was nervous! If I fell on my face or forgot my lines everyone would see it, people I knew and loved, and people I didn't like. There was no flying under the radar after this, was I ready for that?
The crowds in the stands went wild...
Wow....I don't think I've ever heard applause that loud for me before. They truly enjoyed all the hard work and sweat and tears that my partner and I put into our scene. It was amazing.
We were the Kings and the Queens...
I felt like a Queen. There is no describing what it was like walking away afterwards, people stared at me, random people I had
never met said congratulations and told me they loved the scene; guys, girls, teachers all looked at me differently...I felt like royalty?
And they read off our names...
To go back to that day in chapel... when they announced our names as the Winner of the duo-acting contest, and we had to stand up in Founders Memorial Amphitorium was crazy. I was stunned. My mind was racing and I almost cried. I've never been so happy. Some people would think I was stupid for making it such a big deal, that it was cool, but why would I care so much? Because I love it. Because I had finally proved myself.
The night you danced like you knew our lives would never be the same...
I walked out onto that stage unknown, and walked off with everyone and their mother knowing my face. it was unreal. I my not have danced on staged, (though I did jump in my partner's arms, haha) but I was dancing on the inside.
You held your head like a hero on a story book page...
We walked to the dark tunnel that led on stage and stood there waiting for the signal to go on. That was when I felt it. The nerves, the chills, the knot in my stomach that made me want to throw up. I turned to my partner right next to me and gave him a horrified look. "What?" "I'm freaking out now." He just smiled and hugged me. Then he walked out and I followed behind.
It was the end of a decade
But the start of an age...
I had started my freshman year at college as an unknown and finished my junior year as a performer that everyone had seen. I literally came into my second semester junior year with only a few speech teachers knowing my name, and finished it with everyone knowing who I was and what I could do. It was the accomplishment of a dream.
Long live the walls we crashed through...
Twenty duo-acting teams, top six, top three, one winner. We
made the top six and then we came in forth; the alternate in case one team couldn't make it. One of the teams, one of my best friends, had to drop out and that was it. We were in the top three. We had started practicing in Dec, and we practiced several times a week.
All the kingdom lights shined just for me and you…
All our blood, sweat, tears, and broken thumb (loooong story!) had paid off. We stood on the stage with the lights blinding us and had medals placed around our necks. I couldn’t keep the smile off my face if I had tried.
I was screaming long live all the magic we made…And bring on all the pretenders.
My wildest dream had finally come true. It was a day I would never forget. And no one could ever take it away from me, or tell me that I wasn’t good enough.
So I'm going to tell my story by using a different TS song,
I said remember this moment, in the back of my mind...
I woke up that morning, May 3rd, 2012, and I lay in my bed trying to hold on to the feeling, of waking up and knowing that today I was going to stand on huge stage and perform in front of all my friends and teachers and my whole student body. Do you know what that feels like? Its crazy and magical, and it doesn't make sense. It was like waking up in a fairy tale.
The time we stood with our shaking hands...
You bet I was nervous! If I fell on my face or forgot my lines everyone would see it, people I knew and loved, and people I didn't like. There was no flying under the radar after this, was I ready for that?
The crowds in the stands went wild...
Wow....I don't think I've ever heard applause that loud for me before. They truly enjoyed all the hard work and sweat and tears that my partner and I put into our scene. It was amazing.
We were the Kings and the Queens...
I felt like a Queen. There is no describing what it was like walking away afterwards, people stared at me, random people I had
never met said congratulations and told me they loved the scene; guys, girls, teachers all looked at me differently...I felt like royalty?
And they read off our names...
To go back to that day in chapel... when they announced our names as the Winner of the duo-acting contest, and we had to stand up in Founders Memorial Amphitorium was crazy. I was stunned. My mind was racing and I almost cried. I've never been so happy. Some people would think I was stupid for making it such a big deal, that it was cool, but why would I care so much? Because I love it. Because I had finally proved myself.
The night you danced like you knew our lives would never be the same...
I walked out onto that stage unknown, and walked off with everyone and their mother knowing my face. it was unreal. I my not have danced on staged, (though I did jump in my partner's arms, haha) but I was dancing on the inside.
You held your head like a hero on a story book page...
We walked to the dark tunnel that led on stage and stood there waiting for the signal to go on. That was when I felt it. The nerves, the chills, the knot in my stomach that made me want to throw up. I turned to my partner right next to me and gave him a horrified look. "What?" "I'm freaking out now." He just smiled and hugged me. Then he walked out and I followed behind.
It was the end of a decade
But the start of an age...
I had started my freshman year at college as an unknown and finished my junior year as a performer that everyone had seen. I literally came into my second semester junior year with only a few speech teachers knowing my name, and finished it with everyone knowing who I was and what I could do. It was the accomplishment of a dream.
Long live the walls we crashed through...
Twenty duo-acting teams, top six, top three, one winner. We
made the top six and then we came in forth; the alternate in case one team couldn't make it. One of the teams, one of my best friends, had to drop out and that was it. We were in the top three. We had started practicing in Dec, and we practiced several times a week.
All the kingdom lights shined just for me and you…
All our blood, sweat, tears, and broken thumb (loooong story!) had paid off. We stood on the stage with the lights blinding us and had medals placed around our necks. I couldn’t keep the smile off my face if I had tried.
I was screaming long live all the magic we made…And bring on all the pretenders.
My wildest dream had finally come true. It was a day I would never forget. And no one could ever take it away from me, or tell me that I wasn’t good enough.
"I had the time of my life, fighting dragons with you..."
I'm proud of you.
ReplyDeleteI know what it's like, what it feels like to feel worthless and weak. To know that no matter how hard you scream at people at the top of your lungs, they'll just look at the pavement and rush on by, dubbing you as just another crazy. I know what it's like.
I know what it's like to be given a chance. A slim chance. A chance that no one expects you to shine with. A chance that was handed to you out of pure grace from the Maker, with no other explanation. I know what it's like to work day in and day out; to sacrifice, to give, to submit. I know what it's like.
I'm really proud of you, Becca, for taking the opportunity that you had been giving and glorify the One who gave it to you. May I prophesy for you? May I be so bold?
You will be given many more opportunities. Many more. You will not always learn a lesson or win a medal, but always be sure to come out of an opportunity a better woman than when you entered. Let that be your reward, regardless of what else follows. Be true to what YOU want and what HE wants for you. He enjoys blessing his children. Says so in the Book. He is rooting for you. I'm rooting for you.
You're becoming an amazing young woman of God. I'm proud of you, Becca.